Category: Letters to Squidgy

39 Weeks Pregnant: Head Down, Bottoms Up

February 18, 2012 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy, I’m writing this a few days in advance of actually posting it. It’s called ‘scheduling’ and at the moment it’s one of the few things I seem to be able to do to feel like I’m doing much to prepare for your birth. I have this persistent cold that comes and goes, but… more

Pregnancy Week 37 – Letter To Squidgy

February 4, 2012 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind
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Dear Squidgy I haven’t written to you in weeks. I can’t believe how quickly the last couple of months have gone. Just a few days ago it was Christmas – and suddenly here we are in February and I’m counting down the days. It’s crazy. You’ll be here within the month, and there still seems… more

Pregnancy Week 29 -Things Are Getting Serious

December 8, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy, This is it. The final week of pregnancy that starts with a 2. From here on out, if I recall, things begin to move really very fast and before we know it, you’ll be in my arms. To be honest, I’m a little afraid. It’s not you. It’s us, this life, our lives.… more

Pregnancy Week 27 – Exercises And Mince Pies

November 26, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Attachment Parenting, Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy, I’m a couple of weeks behind in writing down my thoughts, feelings and your progress and all that. I  know it’s not the same, but I do talk to you about the pretty much daily, and I spend half the day writing in my head. If someone could attach a keyboard to my… more

Pregnancy Week 25 – Some Things You Didn’t Know

November 12, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind
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Dear Baby, I have a confession to make. I haven’t written much lately, not because I’ve not had anything to say to you, but because I’ve been so unfocused. My days have been filled with housework, paid work, Ameli, personal things, things and more things going on, occupying my mind, fighting for my attention and… more

Pregnancy Week 21 – Kicks And Cuddles

October 16, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind
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Dear Squidgy Can you believe we’re 21 weeks into this thing already? I look fat, not pregnant. Thanks for that. I have to unbutton the top of my jeans, but so far that’s about it. No maternity clothes – for which I’m grateful. I’m dreading forking out for winter maternity clothing I’m going to use… more

Pregnancy Week 19 – Falling In Love With You

October 3, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy Well, we’ve made it to and through 19 weeks, and it’s been one heck of a busy week. Let’s see – on Thursday, which is your ‘official’ 19 week date, we had a visit from our lovely midwife. She checked my blood pressure, which was quite low, but normal for me. The urine… more

Pregnancy Week 18 – Abnormality Scan

September 27, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy, I haven’t written in a couple of weeks, because, honestly, there’s not been a huge amount to say.  Now there’s so much to say I’m just a bit overwhelmed by it all, really. I think I’ve decided in the last week that pregnancy is not for me. Obviously I’m thrilled to be having… more

Dear Squidgy – Pregnancy Week 16

September 10, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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Dear Squidgy, I honestly can’t believe how incredibly quickly time is going, and I can’t believe that I’m sixteen weeks pregnant already! We’re almost half way now – in a few more week, anyway, and I’m just flabbergasted at how ridiculously fast it’s all going. Soon you’re going to be here, and once again, life… more

Squidgy – Pregnancy Week 14

August 27, 2011 Posted by Luschka under Letters to Squidgy, On Mama's Mind, Pregnancy
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I’ve decided I’m tired of confusing myself by having two dates to check progress against and that I’m actually at 14 weeks, as per the EDD given by the midwife. That’ll probably change once I have a scan, and I know I won’t fuss about going over until I actually reach 42 weeks, because I… more


I’ve decided I’m tired of confusing myself by having two dates to check progress against and that I’m actually at 14 weeks, as per the EDD given by the midwife. That’ll probably change once I have a scan, and I know I won’t fuss about going over until I actually reach 42 weeks, because I don’t know, but for now we’ll go with that little spindle the midwife uses, and assume we’re at 14 weeks.

This week has been a busy one. We’ve travelled a lot, we’ve revisited places Mommy lived when I was growing up, and your sister decided she no longer naps during the day, which has been thoroughly exhausting for me, and I truly hope is just a phase.

I’ve struggled with nausea as bad as ever, and almost threw up in a shop today but fortunately I didn’t. That’s a flood gate I’m terrified of opening. I only have one tablet a day left until we go back to the UK, so I’m just hoping everything goes smoothly and the sickness starts abating. What I do know is with how sick I feel when the meds wear off, I’m so grateful I’m on them. I don’t know if I’d have made it through this time. It feels aggressive, and it’s always knocking on the door like waves relentlessly bashing against rocks, eased only when the tide is out – in other words when I’ve just taken the pill.
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